not as fruscated as before, but still a little peeved
so almost a week ago, i made a longer-than-normal post about my distaste of my bands new cd. if you read it, you know that the language a tad strong. which brings me to the point of this post.
today my mom came up to me and said, “i heard from someone that you wrote something online about your album that used quite a few foul words. i haven’t seen it, but be careful what you write on the internet.” and when i asked her who told her about it she wouldn’t say.
i have a pretty good idea of who it was, though.
now i don’t really care that my mom found out about it. i mean, hell, god knows who reads this thing (nobody). however, it kind of pisses me off that someone read it, went “oooooo” and ran off and tattled. that’s what tattle-tales do. this person is a tattle-tale.
i grew up learning that tattlers were just as bad as the ones who broke the rules in the first place, so i feel kind of betrayed that somebody would do that. even if they accomplished nothing, since i never cared who read it in the first place.
i would have said this to my mom, but i figure that the person in question will just tell her. y’know, cause they’re a tattle-tale.
you can see josh multiple times in this. he was wearing a pink wig and jacket. and i stood next to that donut guy. i wish they got the guy dressed as jesus.
i am fruscrated
the album is finished, and i finally sat down and had a listen.
my first impression upon the finished product: dissapointed
don’t get me wrong, i wasn’t expecting to hear the fucking white album, but it was really a punch in the gut when i realized that all the work i’ve put into this thing for the past year and two months might as well have been spent banging my head on a gramophone.
my biggest issue is the songs (yes, however shitty the recording quality is, that is not what i hated most). to put it straight, most of the songs suck. of course, it’s easy for me to say this since i only wrote two of them, but still. we put way too much emphasis on lyricism and solos. everything else besides those things are shit. hell, even some of the solos are shit.
the arrangements are dull, as if we just said “MORE CHORUSES!” every time we didn’t know what to write. the music has no dynamic, it just sort of flat lines with the same amount of intensity for the whole thing. and worst of all, the whole album has no character! no outlying factor! nothing that pops out and says “i’m a stamp of originality!” i’m thinking of naming it “Blands McGee”, its so boring. i got bored listening to my music! wtf?!
wait, i know i said that was the worst part but i thought of something worse. during one of the songs (song name: burden) i had a fleeting thought that made me want to kill myself with a sharpened tooth from my own mouth. that thought was of how the song in question very vaguely sounded like something nickelback would write… FUCKING NICKELBACK! someone please kill me if i ever write something so awful again.
i need to sleep on this. i’m to listen to it again tomorrow (god help me) and maybe my opinion will change but i am just so depressed right now. if i wasn’t in this band, i would not listen to our music. that is very very saddening for me. i’ve spent the past four years making music that i don’t even like. music that i can’t listen to without cringing. sure, everyone is their own worst critic but this is not me being modest, i think i might hate my band.
we haven’t settled on a name yet, but i think the one that is most up there is “wasted time”. it comes from a repeated lyric in a couple of songs on the disc, but it seems so fitting because that’s exactly what it is.
… not very marketable i suppose.
